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Good evening broads and blokes, how is everyone out there in the interwebz? Good? Good? Well, glad to hear it. I’ve been good too, thanks for asking. Y’all are so nice. So how does this thing go…oh yea! Time for Updates and New News.

That whole school thing is fully on again. I said last time that I was so ready to be back in an RTF class, and RTF Production will indeed be somewhat interesting. The plan is that they are going to run us through 3 different classes during the course of one semester: Audio, Film, and TV. I got started off in the Audio section, so it’s gonna be smooth sailing for the next couple of weeks. I mean, shiii, I finished Project 1 the day they assigned it, Like a boss.
(Not that Film or TV should be any less easy, but y’all know my forte.)

Spanish looks like it’s going to go just as well as a Spanish class will. Since we only meet twice a week, the already condensed semester is even further condensed. We have a midterm coming up next week. I know, WTF is exactly what I said. On the other hand, that Spanish Song I was talking about before, now titled “Mirar El Mundo Quemar” is coming along nicely. I’m looking forward to being able to turn it in.

So, what else is coming up in my schedule. I told you last time about all the Thousand Foot Krutch awesomeness that is on the horizon and the potential Linkin Park stuff that may or may not be coming up, so I’ll glaze over that for the time being.

As of 21 minutes ago, it became February. What does everyone think of when one mentions February? Black History Month…yea, that too, but what else? Right, Valentines Day. And when you’re single, what can be worse than a holiday dedicated to love? Enjoying this holiday the way that it was intended seems to be impossible for me. I got together with my last girlfriend at around this time last year, and as such, Valentines Day wasn’t that big of a deal. I chose to celebrate Chinese New Year last year. The year before that, my girlfriend at the time broke up with me the day before Valentines Day. I spent that Valentines Day drinking. This year…completely lacking a girlfriend…I think I may have a plan.

The Mass Effect 3 Demo drops February 14th. I feel like regardless of whether I was in a relationship or not, I’d be doing this anyways. In fact, girlfriends everywhere will fall victim to this same train of thought. Sorry ladies, priorities. Next year…who knows, maybe I’ll go back to the whole girlfriend or binge drinking thing again. This year is the year of the gamer.

I believe that I may have convinced myself that I want to cosplay at Akon. what What WHAT??? Yea, I’m thinking about taking it to that level. Believe it or not, it’s actually a thought that I’ve entertained for a while, but never gave any real thought to it until recently. I have a fair respect and interest in anime, comics, video games, and really all things Japanese, maybe not as much as some of my friends, but that’s why I say fair. So, the million dollar question: What will I be cosplaying? Those who know me know that there are a lot of options that might play out through my head…Mass Effect, Final Fantasy VII, Mega Man, Ghost in the Shell, or possibly even Assassin’s Creed. Well, the choice that I have made is Proto Man, from the Mega Man franchise. Here’s some reference for all those unfamiliar.

As the story goes, Proto Man is Mega Man’s older brother, the prototype model for all subsequent models that would follow. It was discovered later that a design flaw in his energy core would ultimately lead to his demise, and troubled by his incomplete status and his independency, being the only one of his kind, he ran away from his creator, Dr. Thomas Light. Before succumbing to his design flaw, he was discovered by the exiled scientist, Dr. Albert Wily, who after studying his design was able to convert his energy core to one that would function correctly. Dr. Wily also made other design changes to Proto Man, including the addition of his Proto Shield, helmet, and trademark visor, in an attempt to disguise his true identity from Dr. Light. Indebted to Dr. Wily, Proto Man served him under the alias of Break Man until his encounters with Mega Man caused him to realize Wily’s true intentions. Proto Man turned his back on Wily, aiding Mega Man. Proto Man however refused any kind of help from Dr. Light, still harboring feelings of mistrust towards him.

That, in a nutshell is my characters biography. Proto Man is a lone wolf, which I think fits well with myself. Designing the outfit looks easy enough. Their are a few items that will be hard to fabricate, but only a few. The biggest obstacle will be the helmet. I need to turn something like this:

…more into something like this:

It looks hard…but doable. The first obstacle is just getting a cheap helmet. I’ve decided that if I can actually get my hands on a helmet for pretty cheap, that I’m going to go for it and attempt the whole outfit.

I’ve got my work cut out for me. It should be worth it though, because with it, I’ll finally be able to go to a Kon, and finally be with my people.
This year is shaping up to be a good year if my schedule works out as anticipated. As always, I’ll keep you posted.

Keep you heads up, your minds sharp, and your hearts open.

– The Outlaw


Boys, girls, dogs, cats, and literate creatures of all varieties…welcome back! The year of our demise has begun! Well, at least if you believe the Mayans anyways. We have also begun a new school year. That means finally getting back into RTF work. I’ve been waiting for this since May last year. I’ve been foaming at the mouth, so as Sponge Bob always says, I’m ready.

At this point we’ve also passed New Years, and most of January at this point. Some Updates and New News should probably be in order, right? Not really. I haven’t had much activity since my last post in mid-December. New Years was fun, but relatively uneventful. I didn’t even imbibe that much. And between then and now it’s been a lot of movie watching, script writing, and song writing. Not much to report on for the past month or so. That being the case, I’ll skip over the usual Updates and New News.

I was recently able to get my hands on a couple of copies of Linkin Park‘s Underground #10 and #11. I know they’re not in stores yet, so let’s suffice it to say that I know some people. I may like these cds just as much, if not more than any of the other Linkin Park albums I own. For those of you that don’t know, Linkin Park’s Underground anthology are all songs or versions of songs that didn’t make it to the showroom floor. I know watching the DVDs that come with a lot of the albums that while Linkin Park is working on a new album, they don’t just work on the 12 – how-ever-many songs go on the cd. I think in the case of either Meteora or Minutes To Midnight, each band member came up with their own vast selection of song concepts, and together that total number of songs added up hundreds. From that point, they pick the best of the best and move forward from there. The Underground anthologies picks from all those unselected songs. What I like about all these songs is that they’re unrefined, plenty of them with old lyrics or no lyrics at all. They help give me an idea for what’s been inside their heads, and where their heads might be going.

Speaking of where they might be going, my unknowing mentor, Mike Shinoda has made several allusions recently that he and the rest of Linkin Park are back in the studio working on new material. I know just as well as any other musician that making an album is a long process, but I’m wondering if we could be looking at major album dropping at some point in 2012. That would certainly be the bomb dot com.

Thousand Foot Krutch also has another album in the mix, that I know for a fact will be dropping in March. I know because I and 2,680 others have already helped to finance that album. They’ve also put out 3 songs from that album already for all the fans that have helped out. That’s pretty cool. The End Is Where We Begin is also going to be bomb diggity. It’s apparent that TFK has an immense amount of respect for their fans. There are a lot of places they could have turned when they decided to drop their label, and the first thing they did was put a call out to all their fans. Pretty cool. I just hope there next tour brings them into Texas. One of my favorite bands and I still haven’t seen them live in concert.

Something interesting came up today during my Spanish class. As we were going through the syllabus, our professor pointed out a new portion to our end grade that we didn’t have last semester. A portfolio. The portfolio is essentially a report to the professor of what Spanish learning and exploration we have done outside of class.  Some of the categories we could invest our time in were Spanish movies, Spanish news articles, volunteering, and some others. The one that really caught my I was a creative option. We can write a short story, a poem, or even…a song. Fancy that, an opportunity to merge what I’m best at, with my Spanish work. This could be very interesting. Even though I’m learning this new mode of communication, I had yet to consider using it to add to my talents. I’m probably putting a lot more consideration into this assignment than was ever intended, but this could be pretty cool. Combine that with a new musical idea I’ve had in my head, well, I think I’ve got a side project here.

Well, hopefully I’ll be excited enough after my class tomorrow that I’ll be anxious to make another post. Don’t hold your breath though. You know me at this point, so I know you won’t.

Ooh, I’ve also decided to make a slight change in how I end my posts. Unless I have a picture that relevantly sums up the post, I’m gonna start going with a Demotivational Pic of the…day? Week? Month? Meh, however long it is between posts, you get the idea. Be safe, use protection, and when in doubt…go for the headshot.

Hey, get your minds out of the gutter. I’m talking real weaponry here.
Rule #8: Never go anywhere without a knife.

 Keep your heads up, your minds sharp, and your hearts open.

– The Outlaw

What’s up boys and girls? Hope y’all have been well, and hope the holidays have been as good and fruitful for y’all as they have been for me. School is still a ways away so I’ve still got quite a bit of time on my hands here. Maybe I can make better use of the ole blog while time is an easy commodity to come by.

I’m not really sure if the whole Vlog thing is something I’m gonna do very often. Even though I was recording it when I was tired, and thusly a little scatter-brained, my skill is more in my writing, and less in my speech. I’ll stick to where my strengths are. But, video has its uses, and if I can find better uses for it, be sure that I will.

It’s possible the quality could also improve with the new MacBook. This thing is amazing! So many new features. I’m tempted to try installing Pro Tools on here just to see how the speed could increase. I don’t feel like dealing with Digidesign‘s crap though. They make great products, but their customer service and support is…well…lacking.

Well, it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything regarding any progress that Eastchase has made. It is the holiday season and I’m feeling generous. Our Master of Drummage has his setup in his Alaskan paradise (Not kidding, you know I love the cold). He’s been working hard and has some stuff to show off.

I’ve also been working on some stuff too. We’ve all got our own things in motion, so ever so slowly, this album is coming together. Slow and steady may not always when the race, but it’ll still finish.

So, without further adue, this is one of the songs we have in the works, with a rough (but amazing) drum track from Kevyn, enjoy!

I think that most of my friends will agree that staring into a fire reminds you of the past, and can sometimes get the creative juices flowing, so here’s something to help y’all out.

Keep your heads up, your minds sharp, and your hearts open.

– The Outlaw

Too tired and w/e to write up an actual post. So…to the moving pictures!
P.S. Forgot I had the music up, sorry if I get drowned out. Won’t make the same mistake next time.

– The Outlaw

Guess what? I’m still alive! Wow, I thought I’d have at least two more posts up in this time, but I just got swallowed up by the holiday break and by a wave of school work. I’ll be making up for lost time a little bit in this post, so you may want to grab a beverage and a salty snack. So, I’ll open up with my Updates and New News.

It feels really odd to say that the semester is almost over. We just got done with Thanksgiving break and there are only a few weeks left until Finals. And I actually feel pretty good about them coming up. I just aced an oral interview in my Spanish class today, so I feel pretty on top of things. We’ll just have to see what kind of nonsense they decide to dump on us in the ensuing weeks.

At the end of my last post, I was anticipating the Thanksgiving Break, and all the festivities that would come with it. Thanksgiving break is always fun for me, as it is always paired with my birthday, so I get to pig out, visit a lot of family, AND get a few gifts. This year was especially good for me. Though I only got 1 real purchased gift, it was a good one that will have some seriously positive repercussions on my course of action. I got an iPad!

I know that the iPad is a device that is very polarizing. People either love it or they hate it. Most people I know that hate it see it this way, “Well, it’s an oversized iPhone that can’t make phone calls, or it’s a small laptop that can’t do near as many things as my laptop can.” To those people, I say that they don’t really know what an iPad is. I used to be one of those people that didn’t really see a whole lot of use for it. There have been a lot of advancements, however, in all the musical applications for iOS devices. A lot of these work for the iPhone, but they would be that much better if you had more real estate to work with. That is where the iPad excels. Take the functionality of the iPhone, make it faster, cleaner, give it more space, and supersize the capabilities and the iPad shines. The iPad is the device for the techie on the go.

Now I was talking about various musical applications that had been coming out that made me give the iPad more attention. The technology has actually improved to the point that you can plug a guitar into the iPad, and record into it.

I have a small home studio that is amazing for it’s size. However, when I want to get some recording done away from my studio setting, I always have to pack up a big bag and bring that and a few instruments with me. It is mobile, but it can be cumbersome. Now, take most of the equipment I need, including some of the instruments, and pack them all into the iPad in the form of apps, and I now have an extremely portable music studio. Yes, Outlaw Productions truly can go mobile now!

You can look at my pictures to get an idea of the kinds of equipment I have in my studio, and what needs to be transported to do a mobile recording session. Now take a look at this.

Pictured above is the Peavey AmpKit app for iPad and iPhone. This application gives you access to a number of different amp and cabinet pairings that you can mix and match to find what creates just the perfect sound you are looking for. You can also throw in one of several different types of microphones to mic up the amp the way most studios choose to record for cleaner sound. In addition to the amps and mics, there are a wide variety of different effect pedals that can be folded into the mix in whatever order you choose. All components mentioned above have a large level of customizability, not much gets lost in translation.

This little white box is the Peavey AmpKit Link that should be purchased. This is the device that physically allows you to connect an instrument to the iPad. Anybody that owns an iPhone knows that the headphones that are sent with them have a built in microphone so that you can answer calls while wearing them. This means that all iPhones are designed with a microphone input in the headphone jack. This is the same in iPads. The AmpKit Link expands that microphone input to a 1/4 jack made for instrument cables. Once you run that cable to your instrument, you’re cocked, locked, and ready to rock.

In this setup, I can record directly into the application, and either export the recording straight to iTunes to listen to, or I can export it to Pro Tools (my computer recording software) for further manipulation at a later time. There is a lot more that can be done with the recording capabilities of the app, but those are a few good examples. With a couple of tweaks, this application can be taken even further. What if I wanted to use this for live audio? If I add one small connector into the mix where my headphones plugged in, I can now route the iPad’s output to an amp, or a mixing board.

Just like that, I can bring to the stage a full range of modulators, equalizers, and clarity effects without needing to set up a large array of stomp boxes in front of me. You can power the effects need for an entire show through one little application.

Just think about that, this is just one application. There are dozens of dozens of music applications out there. That is what I intend to do with this iPad; I’m going to load it up with a variety of different music applications so that I can greatly expand my mobile capabilities. I love Pro Tools, absolutely love it. But I have to admit, that while the recording quality can’t be matched, the versatility of the iPad far exceeds what I can do on a laptop or desktop platform. I am in love with this thing.
Sidebar: It occurs to me now that wherever it is possible to have an Apple device, I indeed have one. iHave 4 iDevices in total. You might as well just call me Appleseed.

I told you that I was going to talk about my Thanksgiving, and it turns into a story about my iPad. Leave it to a techie to turn a holiday into a gizmo appreciation break.
Aside from getting this new amazing machine, the break itself was very enjoyable. I had needed a good break. I hadn’t gotten outside of Denton in a while, and it was nice to get to see and talk to a lot of the family. As usual for the Thanksgiving holidays, my cousins football team was in the playoffs in Arkansas, and I’ll be a monkey’s uncle if they didn’t win their game, sending them to the Finals here in a couple of days. You’d best bet that I’ll be tuning in to that on Friday evening. Oh, I also got to spend a fair three or so days experiencing the effects of food comas. That term should be pretty self-explanatory.

On top of all that, I got a wild idea up my ass while I was home for the week and started working on a new song. Trinity was off in Iowa for the week, so I was all on my own to work on this project. I actually was able to finish the song before the week was up, making this the first song I’ve ever finished completely on my own. I still want Trinity to come in and add some authentic guitar work, instead of my synthetic key guitars, but it was a big step for myself. It just helps me realize even more that I’m getting better and better every day, and I needed that at about this time. We’re excited to put this project back in the studio and give it some more attention. Christmas break is on its way, sounds like we’ll have something to keep us busy for a bit.

Well, I’ll leave it at that for a while. Hopefully after exams are over I’ll have some more updates for you. Then again, I thought I’d get around to a post over Thanksgiving break and we know how that turned out. I’ll try though. Take it easy mi amigos.

Keep your heads up, your minds sharp, and your hearts open.

– Appleseed

Welcome back mi amigos. It’s been awhile. Hasn’t been a whole wealth of things to happen since last post, but I’ve got some stuff that I can throw down with here. Speaking of throw down, I’ve got another game review for you today. So, let’s load out with Updates and New News.

Modern Warfare 3 launched the other day, and having beat the campaign, I think it’s time for another Game Review. I know I said that Gears of War 3 was next on the chopping block, but I still haven’t gotten around to the multiplayer yet.

Let’s start with the campaign. Essentially, a Russian ultranationalist acts as a grand marionette and pulls the world into World War III. They say that the story picks up wear Modern Warfare 2 left off, but it being a war game, they can pick it up where ever they really want to. However, they bring in the major players from Modern Warfare 2, so it’s certainly the spiritual successor to it. The fight brings you to many locations around the world, New York, Berlin, London, Moscow (I think), and other parts of Russia, the Middle East, and North Africa. I might be missing a few, but you get the gist of it, it’s a global debacle meriting the moniker of WWIII.

Sidebar: What I’ve told so far is implied, if not directly stated in all the promotional material for the game. What is about to follow are details about the story that some might like to learn on their own, so it goes without saying (or maybe it doesn’t), SPOILER ALERT! If you don’t know what to know what happens in the campaign skip down to the second half.

So hear is the campaign in a nutshell. You start off getting introduced to the major players, and a few returning ones. Not long after The President of the Russian…Federation? I dunno, but an attempt is made to kidnap the President of Russia, a successful attempt…I think. Some of the details of the story don’t make sense, so I question my memory at this point. Anyways, not long after, numerous biological gas bombs are unleashed around the world, which while very destructive and hazardous, it proves to be a smokescreen (no pun intended) for the Russian invasion and occupation of Europe. Many battles ensue between the Russian forces and the rest of the world before it is discovered that the strings are being pulled not by the Russian President, but rather this ultranationalist, who just wants to watch the rest of the world burn. The end goal of the ultranationalist is to get the russian president to get up the launch/arming codes for the myriad of nuclear armaments at Russia’s disposal. The President won’t talk, so his daughter is kidnapped. The good guys find and pursue the base of operations, and retrieve the President and his daughter. The ultranationalist escapes, but the final mission has you pursuing in a grandiose way. You are given some big bulky armor, capable of sustaining some powerful abuse, and a BFG. You and one other, equally outfitted come and crash his party in a high-rise restaurant and face a small army worth of body guards. After expending as much munitions as 3 or 4 of the other combined missions, you catch up with the ultranationalist on the roof. You jump on to his helicopter as it takes off, punch the bajesus out of his pilot and co-pilot, and bring his chariot violently back down to the roof. After a struggle on the glass roof, you manage to wrap a rope around his neck and shatter the glass below him. After going down in the hail of shattered glass, you look up to see him dangling with a tightened noose around his neck. It’s all very poetic, in a scorched earth kind of way. With that out of the way, you sit back, light up a smoke, and wait for the credits to take you away.


Beyond the campaign, is the multiplayer and the spec-ops. The multiplayer is exactly what you’d come to expect from a Call of Duty game. You start off with access to a few guns, and as you level up you gain access to more guns, attachments, camouflage colors, perks, killstreaks, and all manor of other goodies. You’re facing off against other players from around the world in various game types, the most popular of which being team deathmatch. It’s all good and grand, but I honestly liked the level up system given to you in Call of Duty: Black Ops better. Instead of acquiring upgrades in a uniform fashion, you are given money to buy the upgrades that you choose. I also feel like they missed the ball in bringing back the Combat Training, which essentially put you in all the various multiplayer game types, but up against bots, where you can control the difficulty of your enemies. That was a feature that I really loved about Black Ops; if I am out of practice I can work my way back up to fighting form and get back out there doing it against actual opponents.

The last element of the game is Spec Ops. If you’ve played Modern Warfare 2, which let’s be honest, not many of us haven’t, the Spec Ops element hasn’t changed much. You’re given mini-missions, and either a certain amount of time or a certain point total needed to finish them. You can play by yourself, you can play with a friend, and now, you can play with a stranger over Xbox Live. You also get unlockables, though I’m not sure how they are applied in Spec Ops. This option is nice for getting in some quick gameplay, and for training your reflexes.

Modern Warfare 3 has a strong campaign, with a good and enjoyable storyline. The multiplayer is solid, and there is guaranteed to always be a good selection of competitors. There’s not much lacking from this game, and that which is can be easily overlooked.
I give it a 5 out of 5.

Am I done yet? Oh heck no. I’ve got one more thing that happened back on Tuesday that I need to talk about. So I’ve met this awesome chick in my Spanish class who goes by several names, and I choose to call her Miko. She’s also in the RTF program, so there’s naturally already a lot that we have in common. I could dive into a lot of her great qualities, but this post is already fairly lengthy, so I’ll jump to the point. She told me that one of her favorite artists was going to be performing in Dallas at Trees this past Tuesday, a Japanese artist named Miyavi. I don’t get out much, and I love going to concerts when I get the opportunity, so when she said that I was welcome to tag along, I went and got myself a ticket. (Actually, I drove, so wouldn’t it be her tagging along?) Miko told me that the last performance of his that she went to was sub-standard, so I set my expectations low, and would be content with just getting out of the house for the night. This show…it was straight up awesome! I didn’t expect to go to this concert and get blown away by an artist that I was unfamiliar with, but by God I was. Miyavi is a 2 man operation; the front man, Miyavi himself as the singer and guitarist, and his drummer, Bobo.

Have you ever seen the movie, August Rush? You had that musical prodigy kid that play the guitar, but slap guitar. Miyavi plays slap guitar. I have never actually seen this before in my life, and I was fascinated. My mind was boggled by how quick he could pop those strings.
You might think, how much can a 2-man-band do. Well Miyavi uses a lot of looping, so he can lay down one track and keep building on it. He also likes to screw with his loops; cutting the duration in half, quarter, or just play micro second durations, making it sound like he’s a DJ scratching a disk. He also plays with the pitch and the speed, so it sounds very electronic and dubstepy in places. It’s amazing the things you can do with simple effects processors and a talented technician.

I was impressed, and have been made a fan. Another cool think about Miyavi is that he liked to have fun with the crowd, and talked to us quite a bit. There was also a portion of the concert were pulled out an acoustic, played a few songs and then started taking requests from the crowd. He’s real appreciative of his fans, and he’s a Mac guy.

Here are a couple of vids shot by another concert goer of Miyavi, just so you can get a taste of the experience.

I should also mention that the band that opened up for Miyavi, The Commotion, was pretty good too. If you haven’t seen or heard of either of these bands, and you feel that your musical tastes are akin to mind, you might want to check them out.

Well, that’s all I have for today. Thanksgiving is coming up pretty soon, and with that mi cumpleaños (my birthday). So there should be a couple posts coming up about anticipating the break and the activities over the break.

Keep your heads up, your minds sharp, and your hearts open.

– The Outlaw

Hey y’all. I’m back. It’s been a couple of weeks here, I know. My classes have kept me plenty busy. Well, let’s get into it with some Updates and New News.

Probably my biggest news as of lately is that I got a letter in the mail this past weekend that tells me, essentially, that I’m being audited. Yea, you read that right, audited. I’m 24, how am I already having to deal with this crap. I’m not going to go into this in too great of detail. After all, these are my finances we’re talking about. What I will say, is that the “guy” assigned to my taxes “forgot” to report a number of my investments. Ugh. Once again, this is what I get for putting my faith in someone else. I think I had a rant on here in the past about hating group work, because I find people, generally, unreliable. My generalizations appear accurate yet again. I should follow my rules a little bit better.
Rule #11: Don’t believe what you’re told. Double check. (This is also Gibbs’ Rule #3, many of my rules are duplicates of his because, well, they’re good rules.)
It’s being dealt with, but lesson learned: I need to take a bigger role in my own finances, and not put all my trust in some “guy”.

I’ve been in school now for about a month and some change, so maybe I should give y’all a progress report. My Business Comm. class. It’s a joke. This is going to be one of the easiest classes I will take. Seriously, don’t worry about me here. My Español class on the other hand, much the opposite. Got my mid-term back for the front half of the class last week. Let’s just say that it needs work. I need to bare down and study, HARDER. I need to ignore a few more of these parties.

There’s another thing. Maybe I need to start respecting my liver a little bit more. My liver and I have fought so much recently, I think it wrote its congressman to complain. I’ll be on party hiatus for a while.

I made a post on the Book of Faces earlier today, that to paraphrase it said that my gut has had this feeling lately that something isn’t right.
Rule #1: Always trust your gut. It’s usually always right.
I don’t know what’s been wrong lately, but my dad made a suggestion that may be part of the reason why I’ve been feeling off, but not the whole truth. Let’s discuss.

Mi amigo Kevyn, the Duke of the Drums, as you know is in the Coast Guard. He just finished up with A-School and left today from Texas for his next assignment. (I also wish to extend him a formal congratulations on tearing it up in A-School and graduating at the top of his class. Your excellence is to be commended.) His next assignment waits for him in Ketchikan, Alaska. Yea, one of my best buddies is moving up to Alaska. What a trip, right? I’d be lying to say that it doesn’t affect me. Kevyn has been literally like a brother to me since the day I met him my freshman year of high school, and has been an essential piece of the mechanism that has turned me into a musician and audio engineer. It’s never easy to say goodbye, and though it’s hardly actually goodbye, 3000 miles is a difficult obstacle to deal with.

That’s a piece of the puzzle, but it ain’t the whole picture. Kevyn, as well as other people and events in my past are pieces to the mechanism that is my passion. I for a long time now have felt dispassionate. I feel like I’m removed from the source. I haven’t felt that same Oomph and Gusto in my life that made me the passionate person that I once was, not in quite a while. The mechanism isn’t gone, just its power. I need to find something else to fuel my fire. It’s hard not having my cornerstones around me anymore.

This kind of snapped for me today while I was in class, and a couple of my classmates where discussing a video they made recently. Now these guys are in my program (which I may add that hopefully I will get into at least A CLASS for it next semester) and are generally cool guys, so I don’t mind throwing them an endorsement. You can check out some of their work at Snap Brothers Productions. They kind of bounce ideas off of each other and build their passion through their camaraderie. Partners in crime you could say. I don’t have a partner in crime up here. I’m on my own up here. Even though I’m only 45 minutes away from what I’ve called home almost my entire life, it’s different knowing that there isn’t anyone to physically bounce ideas off of within 30 minutes of myself. My roommates are cool, but hardly share in the same passions that I do. In the past couple of years, Trinity and myself got a lot of work done, because we constantly had the ability to meet up and synergize. Not so easy anymore.
Sidebar – Add synergize to the dictionary.
I don’t even have Awaken anymore. To the best of my knowledge, most of that crew have graduated from Texas Wesleyan, and Patrick doesn’t work at Meadowbrook anymore. So that outlet is gone too.

Maybe once I actually get into some of the RTF classes I can meet some more of these guys and get some projects going. Maybe fuel the fire a little bit and get the wheels cranking. Until then, I need to keep looking for something to give me a little bit more shine.

Or…maybe this gut feeling is something else, and I’ve just been self-pitying a little too much recently. I dunno. I’m not dead and I’m not dying, I’m still very much alive. I just need a muse. Anyone care to submit an application? Yea…okay…just drop it in the mail slot if you change your mind.

I’ll leave you with a few pics of some of the work I’ve done on Morgan recently. Take it easy guys.

Keep your heads up, your minds sharp, and your hearts open.

– The Outlaw