What College is REALLY Like

Posted: April 21, 2011 in Audio/Music, Free Styling, School
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I don’t even know how I find myself with the time to tackle this post. I’ve been so ridiculously busy for the past month or so. I feel like I can legitimately say that I’ve never worked this hard in my life. The amount of effort I’ve been putting into my school work and…well…work work really puts into perspective how much I blew off my first several years of college.

I had my first legitimate burn out at one point this morning. At some point towards the end of my first class this morning, and after realizing that I had completely forgotten about a big assignment, I blew some kind of fuse and my brain shut off for a while. I remember one time when I was forcing myself to stay awake all day on energy drinks all day, and hit the wall when the fuel ran out, but unlike then I had a semi-decent sleep last night. The stress of this semester is finally getting to me, I think.

I definitely wasn’t ready for this kind of stress when I got out of high school. I’ve postulated a theory over the course of this semester on the things that we try to balance throughout college. “Corey’s theory on the college tri-archy of needs,” as I call it. There are lots of things that we try to keep in balance while in college, but I can boil it down to three. We strive for good grades, an active social life, and sleep, essentially. You want all three, but you can only successfully achieve two. I believe that all people when they first go off to college think that can have all three, but at some point find themselves in between a rock and a hard place, and are forced to drop one. My first semester away, when I realized that I would be changing majors, good grades took the hit. From that point on, I didn’t have my priorities straight until I ended up at TCC.

Anyways, I find myself here and now struggling to balance my tri-archy, and I’ve decided to let my social life take the hit this time around. Let’s face it, I just can’t function without sleep, that will probably never be the one to drop out. I can’t pull these ridiculous all-nighters that most people are capable of.

Ugh, so stressed out right now. I just need to keep reminding myself though that there are only about 3 weeks left in this semester, and then it’s over. It will be an excruciating 3 weeks, but it will all be over soon.

How about some new developments, eh?

Last time I told y’all how excited I was about finally getting back in a relationship. Well, you remember what I just said about my social life taking the hit this time right? Yea, you can connect the dots. There are several reasons that it didn’t work out, but mainly, we were in two vastly different spots in our lives. Between all the school, and work, and…well…everything I have going on right now, I just couldn’t make the time for someone that couldn’t empathize with where I was coming from. It sucks, but I’m better off right now with all my available attention aimed at school, and I’d like to think she’s better off, free to find someone who can better connect with her and give her the attention she deserves.

I also said last time that I was working on a music video as part of a class project. Well, that’s still going, but time is a high value commodity in my life right now, and I just can’t afford it most of the time. It ain’t easy finding time to work on this project, but ever so slowly, it’s coming along. It might not be everything it can be by the time it’s due for school, but it doesn’t have to stop there. I’m gonna keep pounding this thing out until it’s in great shape, and then, it will be released for everyone to see. School will be well over a month from now, and by then, we should have a nearly finished project, if not fully complete.

There will be good news at my next post, I guarantee it. Even if it’s just that I’ve made it to the other side of this ridiculously stressful end of the semester, it will be good news.

Keep y’alls heads up guys. I will too.

– The Outlaw


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